The me you see, the me you don't see.

Have you often asked yourself, what would Amory Butler do? No, of course not. That would be weird. Asking myself that question would be even weirder. But hey, that's the me you see. What you don't see is that I really do ask myself this question when trying to decide who I am in this world I call my life. 


My life story is only 29 years long. The story is getting good. I've been married for 9 of those years. I've had my daughter for the last six. What a journey!


The point of this blog (finally, Amory--jeez!)
I want to share a list of things you see, and then list a few things you don't see about the world I call my life. (sorry, this is an exercise for therapy-if you don't get it, then go back to surfing Facebook! LOL


Things you see:
1. I am five foot tall, and 2 inches. The inches are VERY important. I call them my lovable inches.
2. I am a natural curly haired brunette.
3. I do enjoy smiling and laughing.
4. I have a body built for laying on the couch and reading while eating Doritos and sipping Dr Pepper.
5. My eyes are my prettiest feature on my face. I do so love my eyes. 




Things you don't see: (the hard part)
1. I have a heart bigger than it should be. The physical heart, not metaphorical.
1a. #1 shouldn't count because even though you can't see my physical heart, that is not the assignment.
2. I am a borderline Lupus diagnosed type person.Truth is I believe I have it, and am being mildly treated for it, but have yet to find a specialist for my woes. I am currently struggling with this fact, but as I have learned in the last six months, it will always be a balancing act between doctors, my activity level, my weight, and so many other factors I don't want to mess with stressing over at the moment. Good news, the new fitness plan has helped immensely. Maybe by living a healthier lifestyle, my woes will not be so overwhelming.
3. I desperately want another child. It's time. Jamie is six and I am ready. I find motherhood to be fulfilling in ways I never expected. 
4. I have a sensitive heart. I want love. I crave it. I am only human. I am not lacking in love the department. I just want everyone in the world to know I love them. Even if you bug me, I still love you. There are so many shades of love. God was so good in creating us with various levels of love. I love you!
5. I enjoy my job. If fulfills me in a way I never expected. I love what I do and how what I do affects the bigger picture. I wasn't looking for anything but a decent wage/8-5 job. Somehow, God led me to IHCRC and has shown me so many lessons in the last 8 1/2 years. Being a part of the clinic, even if most people think all that I do is "insurance stuff" has been a blessing. The mission behind the clinic and it's reason for being drives me to work harder than necessary to be a part of the bigger picture. Some days are harder than others, but that's just life. 




That concludes tonights therapy session. Thank you for reading, whether you were bored or truly interested.